I've reached my limit, & the pressure is on. House, Wife, Car(s), Rent, Own, Mortgage, Bills... Kids?! Not that far, yet. Can I do it all? Of course, because this is LIFE, and I WILL overcome and achieve, not because I have to, because I have to know what I can do. If life gives me beyond my limit, I can only do one, of two things; Endure or Surrender, and believe me the latter seems so much more tempting right about now. But if my limit can endure, and stretch my tolerance a little bit farther, would it make me a better person, or just another guy who has issues?

 

2009 has taken me to my limit, I've lasted up to now, anymore pressure and sure as shit, I'm going to crack. Where will I find the strength to endure? Who will I look to, for guidance? No one, this is it, I'm on my own, I've gained a lot of weight, and I think stress is more of a reflex action now, than a anxiety to me then. I've ruin a better part of my life, to risk it all for that little gleam of hope at the end. Life will pay itself off in the end, but what will it cost me to get there? I'm broke and life is asking for more and more. Pockets are shallow but the deep end will drown me in debt. I just need a little of light to shine on me.

It's raining, and flooding to no end. The storm of endless fury, will wash me away from it all, while firm ground with my head above water is a deep ill advised illusion that won't end well. I have to reach past a limit too far stretched. Endure, just endure.

 

You're gonna break, you're gonna fold, and all my walls are going to come crashing down on me. I WILL NOT give up, and I WILL get up and power through, I just need rest, comfort, and maybe a little support, things I don't think I can find on my own. I just need a little light to shine on me.